Soooo.....I'm just bored and there is nothing to do... and I'm not sure how to start a rp thingy sooo just chat in the comments bc I like meeting new peeps and well I'm bored and need someone to talk to.. soo yeee *sits Indian styled and waits patiently*

It's in the making guys and I need u guys to tell me if the shape is right...

Hey.. this is the last time that I am going to post this... promise but if anyone wants to have a parabatai I am open or if anyone just needs a friend I'm here on weekdays so ye.. I'm lonely and need a friend (and or parabatai) and now you wont hear meh complain anymore...

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Hey lovelies, how's life? Hang in there, stay sharp.

So uh....Look I need help. All my lgbt friends out there, how well can you explain things? I've been out for nearly a year about my genderfluidity. Know how many times my mom has used my preferred name and prounouns? Three for the former, zero for the latter. Now this is my mom, the one who gave me my name and my life in the first place, so I don't push it. But recently I brought it up just to ask why she hesitated because ngl it didn't feel like she was trying. My mom is supportive about this stuff but not very well educated. I tried to further explain gender identity and how she could help more, but it just seemed like she was frustrated. She said she simply couldn't understand and for seventeen years things had been a certain way. I get that. So also said that they/them sounds grammatically incorrect and that's what she was taught, etc, and that no one she talked to would ever understand what she meant. Again, fair. Still, for me it makes a difference. It's mostly the name thing for me, but does anyway have any advice or anything to help explain better than I have been? It's complicated shit, ya know?

Thank youu (^～^;)ゞ

Much love

~P•灰

I wrote this poem when I realised how much fandoms and books have come to mean to me. (I'll post this in the Percy Jackson fandom too. You'll find out why when you read the poem. Also includes references to Harry Potter 'cause that's where all of this began)

MY HOME

Dusting it, I picked up the book

I turned the page

And a hand reached out.

Leaving reality behind,

I stepped into a world so real and yet so unreal;

I was home.

It's a world full of mystery

And wondrous adventure

Of mystical warlocks and faeries,

Of werewolves and vampires,

Of angels and demons,

Of gods and mortals,

Of Nephilim and half-bloods,

Of wizards and muggles,

Here you'll find a shadowhunter

Named Clary,

Or a wizard named Harry,

Or quite possibly a demigod called Percy.

When Alec lightwood fell in love,

So did I.

When Annabeth chase fell into tartarus,

So did I.

When Hermione Granger cried,

So did I.

Sitting at a place,

Countless adventures I've been on.

I had the time of my life

Feeling the rush, the thrill and the emotions

too.

When Sebastian's eyes were green,

I witnessed it and tears slid down my cheeks.

When the fall of Jason Grace was sung,

Pain awashed my soul and there was a hurricane in my mind.

When George mourned Fred,

My fragile and broken heart

Shattered in a million pieces.

If you're reading this,

Chances are that you've experienced

Some of this too.

So, hear me out,

My fangirl sisters

And fanboy brothers

And how can I forget you,

My genderfluid and transgender siblings.

Everytime, when you

Laugh, fall in love or cry

While reading,

I'm here in this corner of the world,

Having experienced the same too.

You and I are family

and nothing limits the love and pain

That we share.

But, I pity that poor soul

who's never visited this enchanting world

or experienced the joy of falling in love

through words.

When you're alone thinking that

No one understands you;

I'm always here,

Here for you.

*smirks* okay busted. There is no tea time.

I train on Tuesdays and I’m home late so I can’t really read because I’m dead!

And being dead and reading... well I’m no vampire.

So enjoy the day without me showing snippets of what I read.

But no tears. I have SASS. Specially found on Pinterest for you guys.

Dont say I never deliver 😏

This post is a part of the mental illness awareness series that @LHCityofAshes got approval for. She is not posting for some reason but here you go..

Trigger Warning: will discuss self harm, briefly mentions abuse and body image issues.

Disclaimer: I do not, nor do I claim to have any qualifications to be sharing this info. When reading this, please keep in mind that I may be wrong. All my knowledge comes from years of research and (in some cases) firsthand experience. I repeat, I AM NOT A LICENSED PSYCHOLOGIST. While I am sharing my knowledge, I am not a credible source.

If you do not personally believe in mental illness and do not intend on educating yourself from this post, please do not share your views in the comments. That can be really damaging to some people.

A self-diagnosis is never a valid diagnosis (I will do another post on this later) You MUST be diagnosed by a licensed professional before you have the right to say you have a mental illness.

This post is for educational purposes only and will only cover the basics. You will not become an expert on any mental illnesses by simply reading these posts, and I am covering the bare minimum.

~depression vs sadness

While everyone gets sad, there is a difference between sadness and depression. Depression is not just being sad. Itʻs not like it is in the movies, either. It doesn't just go away because something good happened. I would also like to point out that there is a difference in being suicidal vs being just depressed.

Self harm: Some people purposefully hurt themselves because they feel like they aren't good enough, that they deserve it, just to feel something, or even for attention (im gonna talk about this one in another post because self harming for attention has a lot of negative stigma that it doesn't deserve)

Going forward, please remember that depression is different for everyone. Not matching any/all of the symptoms or exhibiting certain behaviors does not make your depression any less valid.

~what does depression feel like?

Its like feeing numb and its almost like you are living between realities. You look around at all that is supposed to be familiar except it feels wrong. You dont want to live, but (sometimes) you dont want to die either. You just want everything to stop, and you just feel so empty inside and everything is going wrong but you just dont care because none of it matters anymore.

~causes

• Abuse

• Body image issues

• Perfectionism

• Trauma

• Low self-esteem

• Grief/Loss

• Genetic Factors

• Neglect

• Bullying

• "Falling off the curve"

Ok im going to talk about that last one a little bit because I really thought something was wrong with me before I knew this. To be honest, I still think there is something wrong with me but that is beside the point. I suspect some of you might have experienced this as well. What is falling off the curve? Remember in third/fourth grade when you were the star student, and you were reading at a college level? You probably also took advanced math classes and 95% of the time you were the smartest kid in the room. This might be the reason for your low self-esteem and depression (lol we all feel stupid and illiterate now).

If you had a high IQ as a child, you will require more stimulus than your peers to develop further. We don't decide the circumstances of our development, but all the adults praised us for being so smart, and now that everyone else has caught up with us those same adults are upset that we aren't the best of the best anymore.

~symptoms of depression

Symptoms include, but are not limited to

• Anxiety

• Apathy

• General discontent

• Guilt

• Hopelessness

• Loss of interest or pleasure in activities

• Mood swings

• Sadness

• Agitation

• Excessive crying

• Irritability

• Restlessness

• Social isolation

• Early awakening

• Excessive sleepiness

• Insomnia

• Restless sleep

• Loss of appetite

• Excessive hunger

• Fatigue

• Thoughts of suicide

• Lack of concentration

• Slowness in activity

• Weight gain/loss

• 
  

Depression could also be a symptom of another mental illness.

I repeat, depression is different for everyone. Not matching any/all of the symptoms or exhibiting certain behaviors does not make your depression any less valid.

I am happy today for 3 reasons.

1

My best friend started reading TMI, so I can have a parabtai once she finishes.

2

My same friend lent me CoLS, the one book I don't have in TMI, so I can read CoHF and TBC

And 3

Today I get TID and LM so I can read those as well

If I'm not active, it's cause I'm in school or reading a lot of books.

Good day to the FANDOM

Okay, so I know that most people don't share pictures of themselves...but I need too. I need help looking for a character that I look like in tsc....I wanna be someone from tsc but I don't know who...so I need your opinion on who I'd look best for Halloween...

RULES:

• You only get one guess per day, but if nobody has guessed it in 5 min, you get another guess

• If you guess correctly, you get a point for your family

• You can only get 5 points for your family per week

• I will announce a weekly family winner

• I will post in the morning PST (Pacific Standard Time)

• Please don’t look anything up online, but you can look in your books

QUOTE:

“I will attempt it. I promise nothing.”

(Answered)

LEADERBOARD:

Herondales: 8

Lightwoods: 4

Carstairs: 2

Blackthorn: 1

Fairchilds: 0

I didn't do my story time yesterday... oki so for now I'm still dressing up for Halloween.. I'd assume some peeps still dress up right... so this year my siblings and I are going as a creepy pasta gang... aka Slender man and other peeps... I'm obsessed with three things... creepy pastas, Shadowhunters and the Iron Fey series... well I'm going as Jeff the Killer.. (I know it's a guy btw) my sister is going as Sally and my bro may be going as Eyeless Jack.... so next year I want to go as a shadowhunter but im not sure who I want to go as.. (and I'm just posting this bc I'm bored btw) so I was thinking Isabelle or Tessa while my brother went as Alec and my sister goes as Clary but I'm not for sure who I want to be... if y'all have any other suggestions then please tell meh.. any who that is all I got.. byeee :waves and skips out of the room:

So here are two wallpapers that I made recently

This one ^^^ is made up of quotes and words from TSC

This one ^^^ is made up of rune names

Please tell me what theme the next wallpaper should be in the comments.